Gao Xiao
thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
the times when nothing seems to be the problem,
the moment when you said, i love you
the moment when you kissed mi
thats the time when i no whats "happy" is all about.
but the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
and the reasonis you.

shihui(:.
pisces.
14 on.
1 march .
PRSS.
hope you'll be outta my life.
cause i missed you so.
hate to be called wrongly.
so ppl, PLEASE .
pronounce my name correctly(:thank you.

I've tried mybest to beinvisible.

Sunday, January 25, 2009
back from reunion dinner...
as expected...
it dosent end well at all..
every single year, without fail...
its always end in a foul mood.
i mean does it always had to be like that?
since i was young...lik 7 plus...
everytime before i reach my grandma house..
my mum will always says this..
" speak whats necessary..."
its like.....this sentence has been repeated continuously every year..
or everytime i go there...
whyy??
whhy it had to be like this every year?
i mean im like so jealous of those that were so close with their cousins..
whenever when my friends were talking about how they had fun with their cousins..
i will be thinking....
whhy cant i be like them?
whyy am i born in a family that almost breaks?
or does it really counts as a family?
tomorrow would be a new year...
going back to where i just came back..
would it be like today?
seriously..
im darn jealous of them...
why cant i be like them?
they would be hanging in their grandma house...
playy games...
poker?
mahjong?
all that...
butt....whhy am i home so early...
isnt this the day when we hang at our grandma house till midnight?
and count down together?
i just dun understand whyy am i not close to my grandma
but instead im so close to my godma?
ever since young....
i would be with my godma..
my godsis told mi that when im young i would always be at their house and stayed there for 2 or 3 weeks and dosent want to go bakk..
whhy dosent itbe the same for my grandma family.
i tried....i tried my best to be with them
to let them love mi more.
butt it just dosent succeed...
today....my mum had a black face...which she carried it one hour before we were going for our reunion dinner..
after reunion dinner...its still there..
always....
i got scolded for nothing....whenever she got this face..
always....
we'rre not happy whenever theres this face.
i remembered once so clearly...
im so upset about all those words she said..
when i was out on christmas to my godma house
and my father called to say they were goin out for dinner..
and i wan to join...we're a family arent we?
when i got into my father's car we were chatting so happily..
but when we went to fetch my mum...
i had a fight with my bro...
he said " why must you come?"
then my mum said...
"whenever theres you there would be fights..."
i heard this...coming out of my own mum...
am i really that badd?
would you rather not hav mi with you guys?
are you guys better off without mi?
i guess so...
i never nos...
today....
i should learn to be on my own...
without you...
with mi.
maybe i will no that...
i could still rely on myself
although i no it will be tough?
butt at least i tried...
huii.
i missed you so|4:59 AM

butteverythingmeans nothing..
